I always know that I’m better working by myself then with someone. I like to take control as I’m quite a perfectionist. I get quiet agitated if things goes wrong. Things are much more complicated if I work with someone. I hate when I think people judge me. I hate people thinking I’m not doing it correctly when I’m very sure I am.
Recently, my fiancée and I had several arguments. It was all about the minor issues. Like getting the stupid wire mess for bbq. I’m sooo piss when he still hasn’t bought the wire mess thing before the day arrange. Even more piss when his parents sending over the bbq stuff. Many times I told him I have SAD I cannot have this kind of last minute pressure. HE always thinks that I’m avoiding them. I’m having a psychological disorder here and you are making me more anxious! Not helping. I also hate it when the arguments he is sooooooooooo long winded like I don’t understand what he is talking about will repeat it like a ling winded hag. When actually I do. I hate talking late nights with him. Especially if we end up with arguments. For him, late night-talking are what he look forward to everyday. But for me it’s more like tolerating it to be over.
I feel like my fiancée and I got along well in every way, but perhaps because of my SAD. Because I think that people is judging me, criticising me, thinking I’m stupid, I can’t get along with him quiet well in certain areas. Maybe it’s me who has to change. Maybe I should go for a check up. But I’m unsure
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